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Category: Month One

Mindless Temptations

I’m waking up to my latest observation this morning. While I’m grateful living alcohol-free is coming quickly to me by Day 112, I’m…

About Tonight

I’m visiting my brother and his family. All of the kids are home from college and the wine is flowing. Jake Owen is playing tonight. Everyone is getting…

Swing Time

You know when you get on a swingset and push off sending yourself back so you can go forwards. You pump your legs, putting effort into it so you can…

Lifting

Today is a good day. The heaviness of the last several days is starting to lift a bit. I was told last night at a Smart Recovery meeting that I…

Be Still

No wonder I avoid being alcohol-free and have a hard time sustaining it. I’m faced with the reality of what has hurt me so very deeply all…

Wrecked

Hmmm. Last night was the pits. Specifically at bedtime. Just prior I had had a great walk — nearly 6 miles, spent time with my dogs, spoke to my husband…

Hurling…

I’m having a fun time of it this morning. Just noticing that I’m laughing a bit more readily. Not so stuck in my head…although…

Better this a.m.

Whew. Yesterday was rough. Thankfully I had nowhere to go but here. I didn’t really want to drink. I just didn’t want to feel uncomfortable. My…

Wherever you go, there you are.

Day 20 is bringing some uncomfortable feelings. It’s been building these last few weeks and now I’m on a vacation far from my usual distractions, and…

Grappling

Today is Day 19 and I’m fine. Just fine is how I feel. I’m not elated. I’m not depressed. I’m not really…

Kicked To The Curb

Again, Day 18, and I want you to remember how you felt in these early days. It’s been a rough go for these first few weeks. Headaches, unrelenting…

Wobbly

This is Day 18 alcohol-free for me and I’m in that “no woman’s land” type of thinking. Alone. Consciously deciding how to be, moment to moment…