A Life Anew: Day 201

What seemed like an impossible goal: to quit drinking alcohol, has been achieved. I no longer luxuriate in the happy hour fantasy of pouring a glass (and eventually many more…

“You worry too much…”

When I was 15 years old, my mom sent me to a therapist after she learned about my first big drink-fueled night out. I don’t remember much…

Passing the Torch

Six years ago today my dad fell down his basement stairs and died on Christmas Day. I got the call at around 4 pm Christmas Eve and knew he would…

The Truman Show

I like the movie the Truman Show. It’s about an unsuspecting man trapped in an¬†artificial environment. As life progresses, Truman encounters minuscule¬†clues that intuitively start to…

Wishing You Enough

You may have heard of the story of the mother and daughter who say to one another, “I love you and I wish you enough.” Their parting words…

Hung up on Higher Power

My son relapsed during his visit over Thanksgiving. I quickly ran through the range of reasons to try to understand, minimize, rationalize, answer what the hell this all means. I…

Reflections at 4 Months Alcohol-Free

Four months ago, I attended my beloved niece’s wedding. Before attending, I had been challenging myself, once again, to moderate my drinking. All was going nicely at the…

Trauma, Facebook and a Key

***Traumas. Wounds. Mishaps. Poor decisions. More Traumas. Disassociations. Disconnections. Fear. Loathing. Anger. Sadness. Deep depression.*** My first 22 years felt like a revolving door of all of these emotions swirling…

Mindless Temptations

I’m waking up to my latest observation this morning. While I’m grateful living alcohol-free is coming quickly to me by Day 112, I’m…

How did I make sobriety stick?

I’m 106 Days into my alcohol-free life, and this question comes up a lot from those who manage to string a few sober days together but can…

Day 97: Sliver

I’m waking with just a sliver of awareness that this journey I’m on extends far beyond living an alcohol-free life. Because the effort surrounding losing…

Write as you go…

This is the message I received from Hip Sobriety this morning. “Write more about it…” referring to capturing the sober journey as you go. Holly Whitaker, the…